It has been long I wanted to explore the word “obsession” through my personal journey. It has been long too the word been banging on my head especially when I talked to friends. I am getting tired with the situation and today I pen it down. I need to get it out of my chest.
With obsession I am here and with obsession I started to know the world of entertainment. I started to write and created this blog from the obsession of a drama titled Nur Kasih. Shortly after watching the drama I started too hooked with the main cast Remy Ishak and Tiz Zaqyah which played the character of Adam and Nur. Their sensation as a couple and on-screen chemistry been talked of the town. Every corner, every angle people appear to know Nur Kasih and the main cast. It’s was a big wave three years ago.
I was there and part of the team consciously knowing. As time flies I’ve created, imagined and dreamed about Nur Kasih couple. Little do I realised it’s reaching the stage of obsession or almost there. Through and during the journeys I get to know their fans and followers which few might be fanatic. Somehow or other we became friends with the same obsession; Nur Kasih. Whether it is bad or good I’ve found something that I loved to do all over again; writing and reading. Following Tiz Zaqyah on her twitter at one time and facebook gave me a bit of insight about her. That goes to Remy Ishak too. From their tweets and status I try to understand them as a person.
Time past and three years has gone. Out of sudden one day I stopped imagining, dreaming and practically stop writing about them too. Not that I don’t want to write but I believed they are now done with dating. They now know each other deeply and their relationship is known to the public. Both of them did not deny meeting their families. My duaa and prayers goes to them and waiting anxiously for their matrimony. I really hope the announcement will come soon and I am sure their fans will thrill with the news. Will we be?
By being their follower and through the blog I’ve met and getting to know more of their fans. Our medium of communication is through the internet; either the comment column in the blog, chatting line, facebook and email and for few who have my mobile number we do exchange text messages sometimes. Through gathering organised by the fan club I do meet few of them personally and stay in contact. Since they are the strong supporter of Remy and Tiz and are obsessed with them, our main topic of conversation only circulates about the couple and what’s going on surrounding Remy and Tiz. After long something knocking and keep on prompting my mind with a question. How far it will get me in my writing if the main topic of conversation only involving the couples and their project? I am sure there are many good drama series or tele-movie with equally fine message together with high calibre actor and actresses. I told myself, if I want to keep on writing I must explore and keep on exploring ideas and views. I absolutely need challenge for me to go further. After series of “fighting” I thank GOD for showing me the complete new path to follow. From there and from series of my obsession came realisation that I need to see and get the right picture what is actually I am obsess at? Is it Remy Ishak and Tiz Zaqyah as a couple or is it their acting I am obsessed at?
This is entirely two different scenarios isn’t it?
Once I calm down and able to rationalise between the two obsessions, I am relieved to know I will never stop supporting them in their career as well keep on praying for their success including their relationship. When they are acting they are playing their character or roles given as expected by the script, producers and writers. Either they act together or not they are doing their job and when they are in public they are Remy Ishak and Tiz Zaqyah. I am not denying the fact remained it’s all started from Adam and Nur and the public been hoping and praying with duaa to see them as strong as Adam and Nur in real life but please do not forget their strength and their effort makes the relationship works to this day. We can never rule and we shouldn’t rule that Remy and Tiz is Adam and Nur. Without doubt they make a perfect couple on and off screen but they are just equal to any other individual with hopes, dreams, obstacles and challenges in life. They need their privacy as any other couple outside the entertainment industry.
Without doubt I am obsessed. I have nothing to hide, but I am grateful I still have friends who are equally obsessed but definitely know the boundaries. Circle of friends who are able to suggest movie or drama to watch, books to read, article to share and many more exciting tips. It does not take me long to get tired with the “fanatic” fans. To make matter worst I am not able to write once I had a chat or received an email and messages from this so called “fanatic” fans. It does frustrate me further. Sometimes it will sort of spoiling my day with their attitude but again I am still lucky because I have friends which I can have open debate and exchanging views on many topic not just the couple or entertainment industry. With this outcome I become more observant and started to do my evaluation. To my surprise the fans truly obsessed with Remy Ishak and Tiz Zaqyah as a couple, not as an actor until they are not able to draw a line between a job and personal life. They are so obsessed with Remy and Tiz and comparing them with other celebrity couple ie Lisa Surihani/Yusry and Awal Ashaari/ Scha. I feel like the world collapsing on me upon knowing this. Did Lisa/Yusry acted together before???
If I am wrong I’m wrong but I don’t think so. Reason being it is everywhere in the blog, facebook, twitter and many other social media. Oh my, no wonder I feel like banging my head lately. It might not affect me as a whole but knowing and readings about it make me form a perception or conclusion about their (fans and fanatic) stage of mind. Do you know why?
Again and again this is merely my opinion and from my point of view as spectators within the crowd. Last year I had a tough time with Tiz fans before, during and after Anugerah Bintang Popular Berita Harian (ABPBH). To-date there are grudges, whispers and not able to accept Tiz defeat in last year award. I am indifferent with anything to do with the word “popular” and award tie to it. It is not my cup of tea. I don’t see the real talent behind popularity and why we need to waste money and energy on them? But again supporters will tell this is the way they are showing their support. I can’t and will never deny that either. Each of us has our own way of showing respect, love, support, anger and many more. My only concerned is the obsession, because the fanatic fans not even able to accept or discuss any critic about their idols. Nothing is not superb; every acting is superb to them. Did they know Hollywood also has blunders when casting the A-List actors in their movie?
The question is, how long are we going to be in this obsession?
Obsession in general will never stop. It varies from one person to another. As we sail through life the obsession changes too. We might obsess with food today and clothes later. The norm obsession is shopping and I am sure we all know the danger behind it. It will leave us a huge debt. Have we ever asked ourselves about other obsession? Will obsess towards the star and celebrity hurt us?
Again it took me through the journey. During the airing of Nur Kasih the drama there are few in the group until they formed a named. We are known as Sanaa and the geng (Red, Dodin, Seh, Apple, Kintan, Nur, Woody, Ummi etc…a dear memories I carry till today although we are no longer exchanging views and notes on Nur Kasih, we are never apart). I am the writer and story-teller so my name acts like an anchor. It was fun though because at that time I do think we are harmless? We jokes, we laugh, we dream, we imagine and get in touch with each other because of Adam and Nur. From all the conversations we had and exchanged ideas, I’ve drafted and created the pantun, poems and short story. I explore Adam and Nur through the eyes of Sanaa and the geng and written it as pleasure of reading and part of day dreaming. After a while the story ended with no ends because the legendary of Adam and Nur lingers on till today in the life version of Remy and Tiz. Again, I asked myself…is my obsession worth every effort? My answer to it varies. I adapt with full understanding the journey of life is sailing through every corner, hills and valley and never a destination. One of the answers I received, I should not stop writing because my “obsession” is writing and my object is “Adam and Nur” or Remy and Tiz. I am happy to discover that my obsession for Remy and Tiz together with “Adam and Nur” carries me a long way. From the bottom of my heart I thank Remy and Tiz for allowing me to have them as my “obsession” and subject for long and now enable me to spread my wings in writing. Through them I am now watching few of our local production and making my way exploring others in acting world. I started to appreciate the value of acting in many perspectives.
I guess I’m a dreamer and because of that I love writing and keep on exploring the world of writing. I do not want to limit my writing to entertainment column only. Maybe for now my direction is towards the entertainment industry and most of my topic surrounding them. The benefits from this is I am able to see how fragile and the danger of obsession as fans in supporting their idols. It is unbelievable. This is actually a crazy world when one does not realise and mot able to draw the line between support and obsess. Any kind of obsession takes away your mind and body. Obsession makes us senseless and will lead us to imprudent. Many does not realise this although after going through experiences.
All this take me back to ABPBH. For two years I’ve been observing the award created by Berita Harian and the strategy behind it. Please correct me if I’m wrong in my observation but my interpretation towards this award is a business strategy using the mind of others and effort of others. The losers lose the winner gain and the questions are who the REAL winner is and who is the loser? Ask ourselves and may we find the answers and the sad part in this matter we as Malays are losing. We never going to admit this and I know because it happened to me last year and I will not repeat the mistake ever.
When will we realise that obsession is actually killing us? When will it be too late? How will it benefit us? Keep asking and may the light lead the way.
Admiration, liking or even falling in love is normal and nothing ever wrong about it. It will only bad and dangerous when it becomes obsession and sooner or later it will destroy us. How far we want to allow this obsession? I know it is a choice BUT please be aware the danger ahead of us. As the Malay saying goes “beringat sebelum kena, berjimat sebelum habis”.
Opps do forgive me there is obsession in hatred too, not just supporting or loving their idols. Which ever group we belong to sooner or later obsession will destroy us. Once we reach that level, another question arises…how deep the destruction going to cost us?
Owned and written by : Sanaa 18/01/12